small beginnings.

7:41 AM

"you're gonna miss this
you're gonna want this back
you're gonna wish these days
hadn't gone by so fast."
you're gonna miss this || trace adkins


the other night we sat out on our tiny balcony, enjoying the daylight that lingered later since we had "sprung forward", eating pizza, getting flirty and competitive with each other over over a game of bananagrams, listening to james taylor, and talking about the little person growing quietly in my tummy.  afterwards we washed dishes and cleaned the kitchen together and laughed and life felt so happy.

a few days ago I got in bed feeling hormonal, out of sorts, and frustrated knowing i just needed a good nights sleep to "fix" the irrational grumpiness i was feeling.  after we turned out the light and i had started to drift off to sleep, you reached over, wove your fingers through mine and told me you loved me.  i fell asleep grateful for a husband who didn't always "get" my hormones, but "got" me, and loved me so sweetly in spite of it all.

last friday night you came home from work after a long week and said you wanted to take me to do something fun (but low key) so we were going to a movie that night.  you asked if i minded if we stopped by a bookstore on the way because there was a book you were looking for, and of course i agreed--bookstores are our favorite.  as we left to head to the movie, i sheepishly admitted that i was feeling pretty wiped, and "would it be totally lame of to to ask if we could skip the movie, go home, climb into bed, and read our new books?"  you said it wasn't lame, so that's exactly what we did. in bed by 8:30 that night, you engrossed in john mcarthur, me in my new book about homeschooling.  it was a pitiful way to spend a friday night, or at least most people might think so, but it was one of my favorite friday nights i've had with you.

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"Still my soul be still, do not forsake
the truth you learned in the beginning."
still my soul be still || k & k getty

"I believe the nicest and sweetest days are not those on which anything very splendid
or wonderful or exciting happens, but just those that bring simple little pleasures,
following one another softly, like pearls slipping off a string."
l.m. mongtomery

"This was the Lord's doing;
it is marvelous in our eyes.
This is the day the Lord has made;
we will rejoice and be glad in it."
psalm 118:23,24

"Do not despise these small beginnings,
for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin..."
zechariah 4:10a

Season by season I watch Him, amazed
in awe of the mystery of His perfect ways
He's always been faithful || s. groves

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there are so many things i don't want to forget about this sweet new life i've begun with you.  a year ago today i was just a girl in love with her boyfriend, but since then we've gotten engaged, and married, i've changed names/houses/towns, and became a mommy.  and if there's something all of that taught me it was this: life moves so much faster than we realize.  and when my tomorrows are looming so sweet and bright just up the road it's easy to want to run ahead and get there as fast as i can.  because i cannot wait to hold my sweet baby in my arms.  but i'm realizing that once that is a reality my today will have become a yesterday never to be gotten back.  and as much as i look forward to the excitement of tomorrow, i love my today's.  just you and me, something that we won't get again for a very long long time.

i love weeknights spent in my sweats on the couch with you, watching re-runs of The Mentalist, Boy Meets World, or Monk.  i love all the ways we find to have cheap dates: movies at the dollar theater, bike rides, picnics, and saturday morning donuts.  i love tickle fights, good morning kisses, foot rubs, dreaming big dreams, and you scaring me so bad i almost die of fright, while you laugh so hard you cry over how funny it was.  i love one car and dropping you off for work in the mornings in my sweats and morning face that you say is your favorite.  i love our fancy dates, dressing up, concerts at Bass Hall, and dinners at new places downtown.  i love evenings spent listening to you play your guitar and violin, and how you always play "tale as old as time" because it's my favorite.  i love the little traditions we've already established, wednesday night is spaghetti night, saturday mornings are for sleeping in and donut runs, psalms are what we read after dinner each night, and whoever cooks is not responsible for dishes.  i love that we both think the other person is hilarious, and i especially love when you start cheesy dancing to cheesy music.  i love how much time we spend in target and bookstores, because they're our favorites.  i love dinners on our back porch, walks to the park to throw the frisbee, and how you text or call me every day on your lunch break just to say hi.  i love realizing that we're adults supposedly living adult lives, but still feeling like kids most of the time.

we have so much to look forward to in the years ahead.  and yes, life's just going to get sweeter and crazier as our family expands, but with that comes days where we'll rarely get more than 20 minutes all to ourselves, so i don't ever want to forget these first few months of "small beginnings".

just me and you.


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11 comments

  1. and its because of you two lovebirds that I have very high expectations of my husband :D

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  2. So lovely, Jess! I teared up as I read this - so glad to see another couple delighting in one another and so happy to know all this beauty myself. To think that it will keep getting better in its own special way just blows my mind. :-)

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  3. Oh, Jessica, sometimes you leave me with sweet tears in my eyes. I've never met you. Paige Overturf introduced me to your photography, which I love, and I love your heart for the Lord, your sweet boy, your precious babe, and life in general. Thank you for sharing your heart and today reminding me how sweet and beautiful life is when we're just living, right in the center of God's will.

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  4. Hi Jessica!! I LOVE this little blog of yours!! I was wondering how can i follow it??

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  5. oh goodness, jessica. this is so stinking sweet! i am so happy and excited for you and your boy! :) (Also, reading this makes me beyond excited for my future with someone someday. I hope we're as in love with each other and with Jesus as you two are!)

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  6. Possibly my favorite post you've written. Love it and y'all. And I completely agree with l.m. montgomery

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  7. THIS.
    this makes my heart happy.
    you and The Boy are so perfect together.
    cannot WAIIIT to have a relationship like this someday.
    :)

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  8. This is the sweetest post you have done Jessica, i love it, and i have to say that you two are the sweetest couple i have seen! love the pictures!
    -olivia

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